Me and Free

I noticed small things, like a red cardinal flying to a branch. The different shades of blues in the sky and how the clouds reminded me of fluffy cotton candy. I noticed how cool and refreshing the wind felt against my skin and how it danced across my scalp which is a rarity because it’s usually covered. My spirit felt so relaxed. All my anxiety and concerns got swept away as I peddled faster and faster with the wind behind my back.

As I listened to music I was being transported to a different place. Perhaps a space my soul has been trying to take me to all along…an arena of surrender abounding in rejuvenation. I was sweating because I was using muscles I hadn’t used in months – no at home work outs for me, unless you count the romantic walks to and from the kitchen. I’ve had zero motivation to exercise and I’ve been lacking inspiration. I’ll even confess, laughing has felt forced and disengaging. But on this particular day I felt a revival. Something about having no destination was exciting to me. I felt like that kid again with not a care in the world and the subtle squeak in my bike made me chuckle. I wanted time to stand still so I could stay in this moment for as long as possible. It’s funny how a bike ride, something I haven’t done since I was 12 years old could have such an impact.


Today I discovered something new about myself – I like to ride. My body was moving to a different beat, a rhythm of my own song and in that moment I decided to name my bike “Free” because that is how I truly felt. The world is being shifted on its axis as we know it with fights for change and equality coupled with anger and uncertainty. This “new normal” is a thing I’m struggling with and quite frankly refuse to accept, but in the midst of it all, I had to find something to keep me grounded and sane, I just didn’t know what that “something” was. Funny enough I hadn’t planned on riding the bike until the next day. I was actually washing it and as I was putting it away something in me said “what are you waiting for” and without a second thought I got on….a little wobbly at first but it was in that childlike moment of fearlessness that gave way and I took off. I even forgot my helmet in the excitement. I discovered an activity that provided me with solitude and peace of mind, a place where I can detox and recharge. On this day it was just me and Free and it felt great.

It’s so hard nowadays to maintain optimistic when the world is screaming otherwise, but my dear friends I encourage you to find something that makes you happy and gives your inner spirit a sense of rest. It could be a walk alone on a trail, picking up that book you’ve been meaning to read, blasting your favorite music, treating yourself to a facial, whatever that “something” is, seek it out and embrace the comfort and joy it brings you.

Xoxo

Christal

“Even in the midst of the life’s many storms, we have the capacity to stand in the centre of our own peace” – Unknown.


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